Away

Something that the heart wanted the mysterious wandering mind to know while the stirring soulful experiential surprises kept it awake..

All that used to be

Those eyes, yes yours.
Those eyes, yes yours.
Reminded me yet again
Of all that used to be.
Beloved, of all that used to be.

Delight

Lonely, lost, this magical afternoon.. By the dusty bedside, to the champagne glasses that haven't seen a toast, to clouds that have forgotten the presence of the sun, this ever pervading romantic ways in which I seek my own sadness- I dance with grief, every night, in the presence of the milky white crescent moon for a new morning's delight.

Yearning

These perennial thoughts
These perennial feelings
That make their way to you
They seek but only one thing -
Your yearning too.

What she said

To tell what her eyes said.
But, to tell, what she said-
Oh, such a lie!

Only you and I ever knew

This reverence that I have felt for you
From a decade ago
This love that remains untouched
Unfinished
This language of the souls
Only you and I ever knew.

One by one

When the leaves would dry and fall.
When the sun would set.
The flowers would bloom.
One by one.

Too much poetry

Is that why you would leave me,
My darling-
Because I had too much poetry in me
For you.

Old Memories

New intentions for old memories
Memories that don't cease to grip -
The heart and soul
And, mind..
Memories that are unforgiving.
Memories that seep into every part of your being.

Lofty Dreams, and you.

Eyes laden with lofty dreams
Sleep that eludes
Peace that teases
Love that makes promises
To break them
Over and over gain
Dreams that are laden
With dreams themselves
These eyes that have never seen you
Forever now.

High

High
High and low
High, Sip and Sing
High, heights of glory
High and neigh
From me,
To you.
Peace that pervades
Through equals..
Through equalizing
 Karma.

Beg

Grim, Grimy experiences of the past
Haunt alongside the howls of night's nightmares
These tears seem unstoppable
These heartbreaks manifold
Where shall I begin begging for truth
Where shall I begin begging for love
Where.

Truth sets you free

This facade of truth
This mask and boundaries that promise to,
Provide us refuge
Silly Innocent - Our Lives, We risk
In this game of shame and guise.

Rightful Purpose.

Anger that seethes under blankets of secrets
Anger that gives way to triumph in these dance moves
Anger that perpetuates every part of her being
Anger that coincides for beautiful protests of the soul
Anger that finds its rightful purpose.

Favor

This love that has pained my soul
This love that won't quit haunting
My days and nights
O beloved
How shall I return this favor to thee?

Behold such beauty

To the tap of a feet
For the clap of hands
To whistles that make music in thin air
To beauties that galore a garden
To heaven and back,
I have known a love
That I never thought would behold such beauty.

Newer Lives

From this never ending lies
From this place begotten with spite
I hope to find a newer hope
A newer meaning
A newer life
This newness which I hope to bind with love and dedication
Forever more.

Always with you

These measured musical nonsense
That creates this madness for a dance
With you,
With you..
Always. and, always, with you.

I wish never to forget

You who still set my heart afire
With a love I have never known
You who wrote my destiny to be with you,
Well, almost!
You who were elusive from the beginning
And, now, are lost from my life forevermore.
You who brighten my day with depleting memories..
You who never loved me back..
You who I wish never to forget.

All that we used to be

In that minute I had known
Such utter peace
Such beautiful bliss
Through you
Through me
Through all that we used to be..

In all the ways

In all the ways that I had learnt,
To love you.
In all the ways in which the Sun
Shines,
Each summer's day..
In all the ways in which you could have
Been mine.
In all the ways that only Infinity
Is known..

The truth that you are

In your eyes I see
The truth reflected in my soul
In your presence
I find a peace that I haven't known
In all of my lifetime.

You who continue to shine

O beloved
You who were never mine
You who continue to shine
Like the ever present sun
In the deepest darkest places
Of my being..

Wedding

In your eternal presence
I seek to wed the moon
With tonight's stars

Song of my Soul

Thus hums the bird this morning
The song of my soul
Do you hear it - ever so clear?
That I am in love..
That I always was..
That I have always wanted you
Like the lush green of the Trees
To the lands so vast and laden with brown earth.

Elusive presence

Beloved,
The beat of my heart
The pulse of my being
Where do you begin ..
And where do you end?
I am forever deluded by
Your elusive presence.

Recognize the Divine

The ethereal ways in which
We were created
The intangible stuff that was
Fed to our souls
To grow, grow,
To live
To keep loving
And to forever recognize
The divine...

Lie

If you could look me in the eye
The way you used to
And tell me
You didn't
Lie.

Oh so rare

Repetitive madness of memories
Spread across the room
To embrace the sunlight
Pouring onto my face
Such delights seem
Oh so rare.

I promised myself

I promised myself I'd let you go
I promised I would never look back
The memories of you and I
Haunt my guts
To know you
To embrace you
All over again
All over again

Barely ever lasts

Never giving up.
Never backing down.
It is strange the things
We call upon ourselves to give up
To end..
To cease..
A mysterious song of love
That barely ever lasts..

Haunted by you

In the new languages I learn
In all the newness of a new morning
In the newness of every breath I take in
In all the new memories I shall create
They all will be haunted by you.

Where do you hide?

My beloved
Where do you hide?
I have looked for you
In the morning fog
In the late night stars
And the galaxies that they occupy
and, in the sweet smelling roses
That refuse to unhurt with their thorns..
And, I couldn't find you anywhere..
No, I couldn't find you anywhere.
Beloved..
Where do you hide?

Incomprehensible magic

In all the beauty that exists
On earth and beyond
That is non comprehensible to
Our limited understanding,
We belong there my love,
Yes, the beauty of our love
Belongs there..
In allll the incomprehensible magic.

The beauty that you are

Everything green
The blue mists that mingle with the breath
All that is gold and shimmers
They all seek
To be named after
The beauty that you are.

Suns of the West

Gorgeous suns of the west
This evening
Whispered to me
The pangs and pleasure of the crescent moon's
Delight to rise
Amidst
Every dark night
To be that
Beacon of Hope.

Looking back

As brief memories of you and I
Fade into the night
As poems for you now become
A burden
As your laughter only makes my
Soul cringe with pain
As time passes by,
I wish not to look back.

Your name

The titian evening bears your name
Like my mind that arises with every dawn
How I can never let go of you
How my mind weaves more and more tales
Of you and I
Of Us
Of a love, that never existed..

His name

In the vast expanse of the azure skies
In the depths of the oceans
In the breeze and space that
Occupies everything
You'll find His name
You'll find His name
So gentle and true.

In exchange.

A new life beckons
Decked with silver lights
Decked with silverware
A new life beckons..
That which promises superior
Comfort.
You have no idea what
It asks in exchange.

Paint me Blue.

Blue waves
Blue oysters
Blue skies and Blue flowers for him..
Blue Blue earth.. Blue veins
Blue me..
Paint me Blue.

I keep holding on

Caught in unsolved mysteries
Caught in unresolved promises
Caught in dreams unfulfilled
I keep holding on to you
I keep holding on to me
I keep holding on to an us,
That has never existed.

Don't love me anymore

In my mind, In all the games people play, In the countless ways we disrupt interpretations, they all seem to lead to a lie. That you don't love me anymore.

Your presence

Your presence lingers within me like a beautiful song that doesn't cease to play in one's mind.

Glimpses

Like the first look of love in your beloved's eyes
This musical mysticism transcends me to glimpses of heaven.

Nothing ..

I asked and asked, what was needed, what could be done, I looked into the vastness of the skies and in that moment, I wanted to promise him the celestial beauties, I asked again.. All I got was a reply - "Nothing." That was the most difficult of answers to handle.

Oldest longing

In this eternal silence
In this space between
In these nuanced meanings of love
There
Yes, here..
You exist..
My soul's oldest longing.

Between Him and I

What is this musical epiphany that brings tears to the eyes?
Perhaps a divine conversation, between, Him and I.

Pristine

These tumultuous ups and downs
This zig-zag ways in which a destiny can
Be delayed..
Keeps one waiting
Keeps one waiting on the divine
To show choices pristine.

Without you by my side

This musical festival I witness
This musical madness I indulge in
All of these, wonderful, divine,
Rapturous, events of my life,
Seem so delinquent, without -
You
By my side.

Sigh

In the middle of the night
Between two eschewed dreams
There lies a poem
That can be recited just once.
I can never recollect it again.
Sigh.

Boundless Love

In the Brahmand
In the million million
Galaxies
There are stars
glittering
glimmering
with endless
hope
and a love so
boundless
it is the same pulse
that makes us tick.

Nonetheless

Benevolent acts of God
In this mythical existence
Of loneliness
Of invincible sadness
Of tears that flow like a river
Of reverence for all experiences
Nonetheless.

Instead

Just to be around you
My beloved..
Instead I see you in the stars above
In the birds that fly high and nigh
In the ever triumphant patience of my heart
In the oceans so vast and insurmountable
Like our love..

Sly

Green green grass
White pearly Cats
Lazing
Straying
Listening into our secrets

Stranger

The stranger hums a new song with his mouth organ
It is the most melodious of tunes
Like the ocean against sand dunes..

Goddess

She walks on magical waters so blue
The forests turn yellow and green too
With her newest whims and fancies
To turn into a Goddess unknown and true.

I don't know why

I searched you in songs
So melodic and true
I searched for you in
Poets
Rich and odic
I searched for you
Even in the nethermost
Places of my soul..
And,
I couldn't find you.
I couldn't find you.
I don't know why
Beloved..
I couldn't find you.

Scribble.

As I scribble poem
After poem
A word after word
Never looking back
Never holding back
I scribble these shining words
That enchant my heart and mind
That never cease to melt my soul's
Need
For more.

In search of you.

These fast paced rhythmic beats
These even faster paced heart beats
This inkling to all that's divine and mine
This swara
This raga
This rhythmic sadness
All of it
Beloved
They are all
Already
In search of you.

Friday night

The disco balls spin right
That glimmer and shimmer
Those right moves
For those beats
The only thing missing though,
Is you babe.

06/04/16

Hey what's up you. Never mind the drizzles for it might shine again - the Sun. Canoodling. Experiences are sometimes better than fantasies. You, me and the silence. The ever evaporating silence.

I know not

I know not if to call you my winter's summer shine Or the darkest night of winter's blisters..for, I hid you away in the corners of my heart which now bleeds to salvage our need to love one another.

You live through me

You are the eyes with which I see
The effervescent beauty of the world
The soul with which I try to feel the
Mystical madness of the Universe
You are the taste on my tongue
All that's sweet, and bitter..
You, yes, its indeed you
You live through me,
As if you were I.
And no other.

If only I knew

If only I knew
How beautifully written
Is my destiny
With you
I would've chosen
Errors from the past
That made more sense.

Your Lie

As I get my tongue to
Speak the truth
Run on a fuel called
Truth
Sweat it out for a purpose
named Truth
Everything
Yes,
Everything is evident
Everything is peculiarly clear
Especially your lie.

Music can

The piano that knows its
Every note
Perfectly matched to
The voices of heaven
To touch my heart
In ways only
Music can.

Acceptance

Tangled words.
Words that make
Sense
Only to
The heart
But the mind knows the truth
That the heart takes time
in
Accepting.

A song of Gratitude.

This power to sculpt,
This virtue to make -
One's own
Destiny
To sing praises to
The universe
For being ever
So harmonious
Much gratitude for this life!

Congruency

As I live through this passion
This love
This freedom
To create
This drive that rushes through my veins,
Marrow and skin
I believe there exists
Congruency
Between
Truth and fiction
In the most beautiful ways..

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All it took was
My beloved's
Loving embrace
To
Dress my wounds

He seems to bring
All the healing
From abodes above
Look, I am all healed..
Bless this feeling I feel.

Towards you

As I head toward my beloved
As I head this road
Where our trajectories meet
Where our synergies blend
To create the most
Magnificent of worlds
That which understands the
Love of Deities.

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Tears that are unmatched for jewels
Tablas that sync the heart beat
Never knowing what to do
Melodies that entice you
To entice the world around
Gentle goodbyes..

Languages we don't understand

I listen to songs that render melodies
I enjoy
In languages I know not
I think of how we loved each other
Though we never really understood
One another.

Toward Heaven

Nightly wine
Nocturnal Bats
Night-time lights
In company
So blissful
So tranquil
Ready to head toward
Heaven.

Lucid Dreams

Lucid dreams -
These dreams that haunt
Me
Every night
To give into worldly conquests
To give into my soul's incomprehensible
Desires
To be
Understood.

Good Bye

These words that seek to worship
Your presence
Forever elusive to my ever
Grasping losing failing hands
Craving a final good bye.

Sonnet 17

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
Thus I love you, because I know no other way

I love you : where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. 

~Pablo Neruda

Juggle

Juggle
Juggle my heart soul and mind
Juggle them emotions, divinity and catastrophic thoughts
Juggle these crazy silly things
That I am made of.

Marvel

My insignificant significance
Of existence
knew
Meaning
With you
Now, without you
darling
I am bereft of words
Of pens, paints and sketches
What do I write about
Who do I write for
What do I make of me,
When all there left is
Silver sadness with which
I see the marvel of our love.

We never were

I imagine you
I imagine me
I imagine us like we never were
Oh this dreamlike mystery unfolds
In the depths of my heart
To hear such songs
To bear such fruits
To talk such sweetness
To be me and you..
To be me and you -
All over again..
To be like we have never been.

Dreams and Destiny

My forgotten dreams
My un-born dreams
Dreams from yesteryear
Dreams for that high
Dreams that keep reelin'
Dreams that sure are a destiny.

Change

Change, like the morning sun to noon
Change, like the Chameleon to her ambiance
Change, like the stock markets that rise and crash
Change, like - your mind.

I'd rather

I'd rather be locked away in your memories
Than be the reason for your perpetual
Dramatic disgust
Arising from this event of the hearts

I'd rather be an elusive recollection
Of truthful perceptions
Of silly days
Of simple ways...

Newer

New dawning
New beginning
Newer thoughts
And, newer soul inspiring
Challenges.
These ways of the 'new'
Never fail to excite
My sobbing, slumbering soul..

Someday

Someday I hope to see in your eyes what my heart has left unsaid.

Messages

If we are quiet enough, we can listen to our love's unending messages.

Forever

Sometimes silence penetrates your soul, and stays there forever.

To miss you

These days
Being alive
Means
To miss
You - in the
Deepest
Sweetest
The most
Unknown place
of
My Soul.

You are beautiful

You are beautiful
My love
Like the random murals
On a wall
Like the perpetual lyrics
Of a song on the loop
Like the images I create
From a place of nowhere..
You are beautiful.

Mine atall

As I turn to rust
As memories of me
In your mind
Become Obsolete
Like the setting sun
I wonder If you were
Mine at all
Maybe, its time..
For me to leave.

Yours

I have been yours
From a long time ago
From the time the Earth
Belonged to the Skies,
To the Universe..
Since Fire belonged to
Its smothering sparks..
Since the Beryl waters
Belonged to the lands so deep..
I have been yours all along.

Mock

Infused with our
Yesterday's Love
I create
I keep at it
I create these rhymes
With no melodies
Sometimes bereft with
Today's naughts
Colored with my eternal longing
For your presence
Amidst your mockery of
My feelings.

Won't you let me be yours

In my eyes I see
Truth reflected through the
Compulsive need
To be yours
Won't you let me be yours?

A message from
The evening Sun
Midnight Creatures
And the Morning's breeze
Won't you let me be yours?

To be all of me
While I try and be yours
Must be a task
Of such greatness
Won't you let me be yours?

Tears

These hushed shedding of
Tears
Like a winter's bitter cold
Midnight's drizzle..
None to witness.

Towards You

Like the Rivulet paving her
Way
To the indomitable Ocean
Beloved,
Help me pave my path
Towards
You
Now..
and, always.

Reign

In my soul
In my mind
In my heart's wildest secrets
You seem to reign supreme
and, true.

War

My mind and soul
Are chaotic
Without the gentle reassurance of
Your love
Your truthful ways
Your rebellious charm
My determined heart
Finds no way
In this battle
I can't seem to win
This war of self proclaimed love.

Love gone sour

Like the lost traveler
I am still searching
My love
I am searching for blunders that
Mar you and me
Broken wood, dirt and discarded stones
That tell tales of our love
Like mute audience that witness
Miseries of a love gone sour.

Holi

Vrindavan is decked
With thy laughter
With thy playful ways
Of love
and, friendship.
Men
Women
With colored skin
Celebrate your eternal longing
For her.
Ah, How lucky must she be.
O Lord, I thank your transcendental presence that
pervades in us all..

Nigh

Throbbing hearts
Signage of love
and, of longing
For my beloved
So nigh
Yet so far
Far..

Missed

As the dusk sets in
Across the tangerine skies
With each celestial twinkle appearing
One after the other
Your presence is
Much missed

Sorrow

This Sorrow
Beloved
That pains and comforts me
At the same time
Your not being there
Your remembrance
Which one shall I hold on to
So that I can continue
My insane ways
Of knowing you
Of ever loving you
Of ever being with you..

When and Where

From when to when
From here to there
I have pledged to run
Across the skies and moon
In search of you
From this day on
Til the day I find you
Awaiting me
Welcoming my presence
With joy.

Peace..

The gentle breeze that engulfs the skin
Soothing me
Assuring me
That
Everything is well
Everything is cared for
I can rest
In peace..
The gentle breeze that carries your un-given
Kisses
and
Embraces me
with
The gentleness of a love
Complete with hope.

Devotion

Screaming out my devotion
Devotion embedded with
Thoughts, words, deeds
Devoid of the karmic magic -
Endowed with only the divine rapture
That I know of.

Beat

The beat of my every step
The beat of my thumping heart
The beat and pulse of the world
That lauds me to love you
over and over and over
again..

Quest

Meditatively forging
This divine quest
To know you
To hear out all of you

Your presence that throbs
In my soul
Like the earth that throbs
with a million organisms..

I'll write to you..

I'll write to you in my dreams
I'll write to you about my miseries
and the unhappiness
I'll write about everything that ever bothered me
I'll write to you like I knew you
A loving dear I could run to..

Remains of me

It's friday night
I think of a reservation for two
Then I forget
You are full of promises
Empty
I thus conserve all that I am
By being consumed by what remains of me.

Misunderstood

Masquerading questions of truth
Misleading jealousies of love
This is the significance of being
Understood
While being privileged to
Misunderstand.

True Love

Sometimes I know the rebel that
You are
Other times I do know the divine
That you actually are..
In between these
I imagine you to be my beloved
My only true love..
Breathing purity into my being
Turning my skin to gold
Turning my mortality to the immortal sin
Of being yours.

Letters of Love

Like the homeless
fearlessly slumbering under
The refuge of the sun
Like the morning birds' flight
across the mountains so high
Your divinity evades
my mortal tongue
and my quick fingers that
ache to write to you
Letters of love.

The Mystery and the Music

The mysterious ways of
Your fingers
On the strums
Of a Sitar
Of a Veena
Of a Guitar
Embracing my heart and
Touching me in places
I have known not
Setting my soul free
Oh, ever so free..

To the future!

These enchanted days of music
All of it destined for me
In the whimsical signs of a magical
Promise
For a beautiful future.

Your Silence

The bees seeking dead flowers
The moth that dies from seeking
The bright wild lights..
Do not tempt me with your silence.

Have I met you before?

Your absence is the
Poverty of my soul
Restless-ness is my other identity crisis
Dual mindedness is my ritual
Have I met you before?

Dream

Dreams from decades ago
Dreams from a year ago
I am dreaming this endless dream
This is the only thing I know for sure..
Dreaming.

Substitute

Grim faced sadness
Repetitive craving
For that one
For that one
For that embrace
This loneliness
Substitutes well.

Yesterday and Today.

Late Late nights
Drunken Eyes
Drunken Minds
Blurring the boundaries
Of yesterday and today
Yesterdays for me
Today and Tomorrows for her.

I didn't find you.

In my blunders of writing
In my blunders of writing for you
In my nuanced tragic heart breaks
In my ever perpetual need to be devoted
I didn't find you.

Blindness

With Blindness I see
All the beauty that surge
Through my soul
That sought
To be
Yours.

It could've been you

The soundtrack of this life
Of my mind
Of eternal memories
Could've been you.

Belong

Blue berry eyes
Secrets songs
I wonder why, here - I don't belong

The Moon and his secrets

The moon wished to hide secrets
From you and I
In the form of silver craters
To hear and know them though
We may have to travel all the way
To the moon.. and dig up the craters..
Or,
You could let me just.. love you.

Knots

Too tied up in these knots
Of love and other such important stuff
Stuff that no longer seems to seep through
My mind
Give me a break
Cut some slack
Too tied up I am in these knots
Knots of love, needs and wants..

Its time to swim in crystal clear solitude.

These Words

These words that rhyme with the madness of your love
These words that crave for that one sight of you
These words that forever seek to be with thee
These words that seek to worship the invincibility of our love.

Have you?

Have you seen the moon tonight, darling?
He resembles thee..
Have you heard the night's call?
That promises togetherness for every morning..
Have you been in love enough, darling?
To bless us with memories that will last decades..
Have you been me darling?
So that I can be you.. all of you!

Only you

Disproportionate - these mutual feelings
Rectangular and spectacle-d views
Audience swoons
Looks like I'm in a soap opera too
Applause is not what I am looking for
But you.
Only you.

To be with you.

To watch the sun rise in your eyes
To be with you every night for that moon rise
To be with you as long as there're birds to the skies
To be with you as long as there is blue to the oceans
To be with you for as long as the age of time
To be with you always..

Secrets

Your quixotic ways
Your mysteries that won't share the secrets
Secrets about you and I
Secrets that won't let us be
Secrets told by the moon last night
Only for us to hear..
And to set us free.

You are..

You are my yesterday's song
You are my past's lost ways
You are the wealth I never inherited
You are the discomfort of my soul
You are the news from my heart
That made me a rebel..
You are all that you were
You are all that you could never be.

Stranger

O stranger
I know you,
And your strange strange ways..
Why wont you hold me
Til the dawn of a newer morn'
Til the dusk of a golden past
O stranger
You have gotten me spun
Spun in your strange strange ways..

That you loved me.

In a dreamless night
In a dreamless dream
You and I existed
To make way for grandeur
To make way for rivers and oceans and tress
In a dreamless night
when all was dark
and there was nothing more left
your silence whispered to me
that you loved me.

He laughs

he laughs like the shimmering tinkling diamonds
he laughs at my fantasies
he laughs and doesn't understand my dreams
he laughs at the stories I wish to say
he laughs away..

Whim

These cold wide eyes
Like the craters of the moon
Delve into secrets of my heart
My heart that breaks down at every sight of you
Every whim of you..

Sleep

Slumber calls these eyes to sleep
Slumber has become me
Slumber seeks to destroy thee
Slumber in all her cold coldness
Slumber in these eyes..
Slumber is all there is.

Old Passion

Like an old passion
You revive all the life within me
You help me become all that I cannot be
You help me see that which I do not care to see.
Like an old passion -
You set me free.

Slip Away

You slip away
like minutes, hours and years
like the decades that fly by
like butter to warmth
like fire to fuel
like water to sand
You slip away darling..
You slip away
All the time.

Sit Still

she couldn't sit still.. her mind and heart would wander to thoughts of him and her. Together. such proximity, such soul's resonance was hard to come by, she knew. But there were other obstacles strewn their way - goals, time, greed, society, and then of course, him too. Such was the tragedy of the love's tale that I am about spin.. She couldn't sit still. He would haunt the renewable thoughts of the present, he could discard that which she held most precious like flutters of leaves into the mid air.. She couldn't sit still. Her restless soul knew no peace..

Hurried, worried.

Hurried, Worried
These words carry themselves
To release me
To release all the madness
within me
without me
Hurried, Worried
These words pain themselves
To find you
Again and again..

Things I want to hear

Tell me what I want to hear darling
Come closer
Tell me what I want to hear
Come this way
Come away with who I've become
Come away with all of who I am..
Tell me things I want to hear.

Win

Alone in this world of naughts and wants
Of gushing greed
Of meandering goals
Of non stoppable needs
I wish to win.
In vain.

Create

I create.
I become.
All that is meant to be
All that wasn't meant to be
All that there is
And, all that there isn't..
I create.
I yearn, I become.

I rotate.
I turn around..round and round..
All I look for,
All I have been looking for
My love
Is you.
None but you.

For that one dance My love
I'd want you all over again
I'd want you all over again
For that one dance My love,
You with I..

ashes

This repetitive sadness
This repetitive madness
Churning out books
Books that will perhaps
Turn to love's ashes.

Alone

Alone
I watch the crowd go
Alone
I watch you go
Alone
I let go..
(Alone
I rewind back to splendor.)

Joy

The lover's sight 
The lover's sigh
Counting pebbles
from the past
I trip upon
I chance upon
That one beauty
That one beauty,
How I yearn days
Of magnificent joy.

All over again

Spilling poetry
Spilling my heart
all over
all over again
for my tragic
Mind's unwillingness
to ever
give up on you
or me.

Fever

Stir, Blur, Jar these lines
Of
Separation
These days of Longing
I have been awaiting
A lazy noon's nap
To awaken to the night calls
Of
Mysteries -
Such is illness.

Dying

To feel my gut pull
Towards
Your elusive presence.
I am dying darling..
I am dying...
To see you one more time,
To see you - again and again.

Heavy Hearts

Heavy minds and hearts
Have plans to make you give into poetry
In ways you may never know
To the now, before and after
In the form of esoteric songs, Mashed potatoes and scrambled eggs..

Search

Search.
Search.
Gold mines
To rust..
This medley of
Search.

Confuse

These games of right and wrong
Winning and the losing
Accompanied by this magical karmic
Music of your deeds and theirs..
ever.
so.
confusing.
Innit?

The moon

The moon that rises every night
Rises in my heart too
He sings lullabies and tells me tales
To divert my mind
Away from you...

Never give up.

This trouble
This mind numbing bubble
These numerous corrections and
Muddle..
Gives way to that one search
Gives way to that one search
I can never give up.

Combine

This Swara and Raga mingle
To marry me to sensations I know not
To know those eclectic vibes of a World
known to Gods and Goddesses..

More

These exotic voices from heaven
Seek to free my being
Help return to my core and back to earth
To heavens and this glimpse of reality
Ooh, ooh, I want this
I want more of this!

Destiny

The ever moving coolness of the air around
The ever present space
The ever guiding inner tranquil of this silence
They all seek to echo wisdom
Of my destiny

Rule

Spin, Spin around, child..
This is your chance
To win the world over
Spin and Spin
Rule this..
Look at the lights that shine for you!
Look!

Dripple Drapple Droop

Dripple Drapple Droop
Can you now hear the music
That same old loop
Join me sometime
For that dance
On that same old floor
On that same old awesome floor!

Exists

Droplets and Tears into the waves
Waves that maketh the Ocean
Oceans green and blue
Nostalgia should have memories
This makes me think of other memories too
In my mind and yours..
This ocean that never existed
Exists.

New year

New year
New beginnings
New endings
New fears
New hopes
Grinding in the belly all at once
While I spew these words at your door!

Follow me

Follow me
Into the light
Light that's been guiding me
That guides us all
If only we see clear
If only we see for ourselves..
Follow me.

The lights shook up the clouds
The clouds shook up the scene
In the skies
of the morning
That was filled with air that
smelt of an eternal longing
Longing that lasts years
Years, Years and an eternity

Promise

New raindrops on my window sill
Tells me stories of nerve and will
How the clouds shall show up
Clearer and brighter
With a message from the Sun
Of the days that bring a promise.

For good

New bitter truths spill like venom
If I had only known
If I had only known
I would leave you for good.

She (part 2)

She appears.
Disappears.
She glances at
The moon so close
tonight..
counting its craters.
She appears.
Disappears.

She (part 1)

She complaints.
She sighs and moans.
And grunts.
Like the oceans of paradise -
rising, subsiding.

Beginnings

The peach-white cat on the doorway
The lingering smell of mushroom, cheese and tea
This glorious evening for newer beginnings!

Else

Without being the lover
Without being the song
Without being the blue of the waters
I would be nothing else.
Nothing Else.

Feat

Round about, repeat, this beat.

Round about, repeat, this beat.

Just in case,

You didn't notice,

This feat.

Neon

The neon colored roof top leads to some people merrily talking about tales from the present, the future and sometimes the past. Like the past has no more effect, like none of them were ever wounded or hurt. They keep coming. In half dozens. Then, dozens. Three dozens. The air thus sometimes gets stuffy. But, the neon colored roof top has a magic that none can explain, none can decipher. Then, one day,..

How!

Itching fingers for writing and nibbling butter, crooked thoughts from the past and an immature old mind set, blocking yet paving a path to glories unheard of in normal times. Times that are changing and changing, that do not even care for a second about the meanings from the past. Adulation and revelations from the south can never be about you, disconnected and underscored.

I wish

Like the strong veins of the trees in a forest
Like the vast oceans whose ends the eye can never see
Like the dark secrets of the midnight skies
Like you, my love from unknown sources of peace
Like you,
I wish to be.

Malfunctioning

Malfunctions I have heard of.
Of that of the mind and body,
But when its your soul that malfunctions
who do we ever call upon?
What do we do when the inner compass
directs all things that never seem to work out?
Yes, what do we do then..

Without you

To newer days
I shall look forward
darling
without you
To newer cheer
That may still exist
darling,
without you
To the Sun that
Still shines
darling,
without you

Wanting

Wanting to know
You
Wanting to know
The me
Who wants to know you more
I pushed aside all obstacles
You but left with no care.

I dream

I dream,
I dream..
Because I cannot stop the dreamer
and, the dreaming.

Forgotten

After all the tears,
Faulted embers fall off a creaky chair
That was set on fire
To the past glory of a Love
Trodden, forgotten.

Where are they now

Those days
No, years
of such liveliness
full of dreams
and a passion
for love and life
alike,
oh, where are they now?

Best

To admire
To remember your touch
Your touch
Accompanying such comforting careful
Words
They resound in my head
Only to remind
That we were the best

Irreplaceable

My eternal back up
For all my pains, joys and sorrowful relapses
Oh, the friend you are to me.
You are
Most Irreplaceable.

Gambler

Show me

You care

Show me 

That you are

Rare

I am no longer 

That old gambler

Of my heart

Words

These words make a noise
To wake me up
From a slumber-
Of pains
Of memories
That lets the past triumph
Against the promise
Of every new day..

Try

With my every try
For a new start
For a new gain
For that new growth
I am left in vain
With another try
Another sigh..

Lost

You enter my mind
Through thoughts, feelings and memories
That matter from a past
That is lost.
Lost to the tears of the Sun.
Lost to the sighs of the Moon..

But

New aspirations fill this room
But the fragrance of a love
Lost and forgotten
A love that still lingers
Into the dark of the night
Into the triumph of every morning..
The memories drift
Cutting sharp through
All the New ness
Is this what we mean by
We get what we deserve?
Or
Is it a choice of convenience.
A deal, a big deal of naughts.

Lie

Lies
Your Lies
Each one of them
Gnaw in my head
Like a feeding parasite
And, yet my heart remembers
You and only your ways of love..

Bless you crazy soul

Bless you crazy energy of mutated aspirations
Still
Yet
trying
Reaching for that star
in the skies!
Bless you.
Bless you..

Secrets

I have new secrets
I have secrets that squirm to make their way out
I have secrets hidden
Secrets that could make more secrets.
Like those permutations.

Promises

Promises to break and mend
Promises to grow together
Promises you never kept
Promises to be together til the end.

To have Lost

If to Lose
were to Win,
We've won my dear Love,
We've won my dear Life!
We've won all along.

Ripples of Love

Ripples of Love
He gives me the tremors
Oh, the enchanting sight of his face!
O, the longing, this lovely phase.

Summer Love

Scrolling down on summer love
That summer day that you let
Me
Be yours.

None here

There is none here
Or ov'r there
Its all because
you and I
were.
You and I,
were.

Brakes

Speeding up
Life
in seconds and minutes
I tried to
Stay
but,
things have a will of their own
a spin of their own
sometimes we call it destiny.

Peace

If I could find love
If I could find such peace
Without you
My love,
It means I have begun to
awaken to newer things
Things I will know
For the first time.

Rise

Awaken
Awaken
The soldier within
There he lies
Passive.
But he knows not
He knows though
He is nothing without
A mission.

Suspect

Quiet and loud
Such voices cry out
for help or sharing
I know not.
For what may seem right
To you
May have been
Wrong to me,
All along.

Wander

Plans and no plans
Fixtures from the future
To right your past
To fulfill that un-quenched dream
of
forever
following
Your heart.

Shame

Forget.
Losing
Myself into this dawn
Dawn of a new tale
tales that spin themselves
at their own will
a shame to my destiny.

Monsters

These wandering monsters
in your mind
carving a niche
for the past
which may continue to thrive
But only in our minds.